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2008-10-11T00:30:00.000-07:00

won't be using this, permanently shifted to a new blog:-

http://sharanx182.vox.com/

2008-08-31T15:28:00.000-07:00

fuck you

fuck this shit.

Grrrrrrr....

why do you always have to try to make me feel better?

screw the diplomacy man...

crappy message histories...

2008-08-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

coming across old text messages
makes me want to puke
makes it hard to breathe...
what you said in them,
the words couldn't be sweeter
but they do become more painful at every viewing without failure.

how can we kiss without wanting it again?
how can we hug without not wanting to separate?
how can your head lay there on my chest...
without feeling a comfort everlasting?
how can your laughter not mean you're happy?

"i'll never be the same,
yeah...I'll never be the same again..." Note:- these particular lines have been stolen, from the following song:-

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Now playing: The Honorary Title - Only One Week
via FoxyTunes

this song is like something i wrote in my sleep, except that i can't write, bleh...wish i could. it's such an attractive quality. one that men use to portray so many lies, i wouldn't though...although, now that i think of it...im happy i can't write poetry or prose or anything very well, because i believe that the ability to write well makes you deceitful.if you can write the stories of fictional characters, you tend to weave some of the 'fiction' in your own lives to screw with people's brains (e.g seduction, serenading)...ugh...that's why i hate male writers, except the humorous ones...I'd rather write the truth about myself and the world in the form of un-beautiful mediocre text.

lyrics of 'only one week':-

Have your lips graced another's yet or am I the only one?
Every time I try to speak to you, those are the thoughts that run
Say something else girl, I don't wanna have to leave
Our communication is hardly what it used to be

When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?

Want nothing more than our futures to collide
Can't tell this is gonna be one of many disappointing nights
Traces of you are so minimal
A black and white by photo booth with us

When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?

And I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
It's not only for me, it's not only for me
There's a little bit, little bit here for you
But I'm willing to wait, I'm willing

Day time is no longer the hours spent
[Incomprehensible] rather the hours to obsess
And the night is far worse
'Cause I know you're alone with her
And thoughts of, of us have been deserted

It will never be the same
I'll never be the same again
I will never be the same again

I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
Time is few and far between
There is someone else who needs
There is someone else who needs your attention
But I'm willing to wait, I am willing to wait
I'm willing to wait, I'm willing to wait

rantings on possessions, sweet girls, and retards...(actual retards, not my friends)...

2008-08-09T01:47:00.000-07:00

the things you own, end up owning you... - Tyler durden

being able to walk around town without any worries is bloody liberating, i almost wish i didn't have insurance for my possessions!!

she...is the sweetest thing ever...(ooh the pixies sound so much like the Beatles sometimes!!) like this liqueur chocolate with extra strong liqueur, that is intoxicating enough to make you not care about all the other shit in the world, her company makes you wanna kick the starving kids in Africa to death because they just don't seem important (i never cared too much about them anyway)

speaking of kids, i went to this 'retard meeting place' recently, some of my friends like to go there and meet them and be all nice and they keep saying "they're so sweet!!" etc etc, why the hell do you wanna do that? i mean, seriously, i was freaked out!! these people are not that developed mentally, but look at their lives, (and this thought has been put into my head by a fictional character, one Gregory house) they don't have to be nice to everyone, they don't have to learn to say the right thing at the right time, they don't have to adhere to social formalities, any mistake they make is a 'adorable', people like to say 'it's so sad how unfortunate they are' they're bloody fortunate!! to live a life without judgment!! they can crap in their pants and they'll be helped out and not mocked...and yeah i think it's just wrong to be giving the retards 'special treatment', they're human after all, however childish they may be, they're still assholes on the inside like any of us...their assholeness is just taken as 'adorable activities', if i spit on somebody it'd start a feud, these guys get laughter and sweetness, bleh...

it's hard juggling blogs, random rants sometimes jsut end up turning into redable material!! (kinda..hehe)

this was originally neing written only for http://angadrandom.blogspot.com/ but here it is, on the other one too (http://sharanx182.blogspot.com)

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Now playing: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
via FoxyTunes

fitter, happier???

2008-07-09T09:00:00.000-07:00

'fitter happier' by 'radiohead'

Fitter, happier, more productive,
comfortable,
not drinking too much,
regular exercise at the gym
(3 days a week),
getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries,
at ease,
eating well
(no more microwave dinners and saturated fats),
a patient better driver,
a safer car
(baby smiling in back seat),
sleeping well
(no bad dreams),
no paranoia,
careful to all animals
(never washing spiders down the plughole),
keep in contact with old friends
(enjoy a drink now and then),
will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in the wall),
favors for favors,
fond but not in love,
charity standing orders,
on Sundays ring road supermarket
(no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants),
car wash
(also on Sundays),
no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows
nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate,
nothing so childish - at a better pace,
slower and more calculated,
no chance of escape,
now self-employed,
concerned (but powerless),
an empowered and informed member of society
(pragmatism not idealism),
will not cry in public,
less chance of illness,
tires that grip in the wet
(shot of baby strapped in back seat),
a good memory,
still cries at a good film,
still kisses with saliva,
no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick,
that's driven into frozen winter shit
(the ability to laugh at weakness),
calm,
fitter,
healthier and more productive
a pig in a cage on antibiotics.

technology may not be perfect, but it sure beats a wig full of angry bunnies

2008-06-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

i saw this 'sheep in the big city' episode recently...

it was basically about technology kicking sheep's ass in the big city, all kinds of shitty luck...and then he somehow goes back into time using a time machine (the show is very weird) and he finds happiness, he's somewhere in ancient greece or something...and there are these people who are really nice to him, he's having the time of his life!! no technology to bother him!! but then he realizes that those people are making him happy happy coz 'lady medusington' likes her 'sacrifices' to be kept happy...now, this delightful woman, is lady medusington:-

and her wig full of angry bunnies!! (obviously this is a satire of medusa, the mythical character who had snakes for hair) :-

ow, lady medusington throws her wig on sheep to attack him, the wig keeps bouncing up and down on him, hurting him!! poor sheep....

then he gets an idea, he takes out some seeds:-

buries and waters them:-

instantly, carrots grow!!:-

he hands them to the angry bunnies, and they're happy and leave him alone :) so cute!! hehe....

so this made me laugh like a crazy guy for a long time :-P you have to see this episode!! you have to worship the chow creators!! the show is so...damn...funny!!! buahahahahahahahahahahaha!! :-P

and yeah, after sheep does this, we get to hear lady medusington saying lines like "you ruined my angry bunnies!!!" (with a heavily rolling 'r', arrrr)

and

"i'll get you, you bunny ruiner!!"

heeheeheehee....

2008-06-07T05:28:00.000-07:00

just happened to see that airtle ad agin with r madhavan and vidya balan...

she's so sensual.....those eyes...woot!

never thought I'd find vidya balan this attractive :-P she's fucking beautiful....

2008-05-28T09:54:00.001-07:00

our country definitely needs a 'common sense committee', the members of which should be elected by people with the highest education levels/awards/whatever in the age range of 18-25, and...the members should be outsourced, rich and sarcastic. and very, very emotionless and...um...yeah something like that.

bleh...and yeah the committees decisions should be final and all powerful.

2008-05-25T00:24:00.000-07:00

If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?

If Jesus rode in on a camel today
With your cross on his shoulder
Time to take you away
Have you done all you wanted?
Are you happy and warm?
Do you miss someone special
You don't see anymore?
Have you blood on your hands?
Do you dream of white sands?
Can you sleep well at night?
Have you done all you can?
The place I was born in
Stays crooked and straight
I see innocent blue eyes
Go blind everyday

Rewind your time
Would you change your life
Today?

lame-ish, but nice...

'the notebook'??!!??

2008-05-22T16:40:00.000-07:00

i just saw 'the notebook', and to be honest, i don't know what to say...

it wasn't as bad as so many human males told me (except one, this strange guy at WNS,hehe)
but it wasn't as good as so many human females told me...

now, i might have liked it if i didn't find it that predictable, and i found it predictable because i had seen this hindi movie "u, me aur hum", which has totally ripped off the concept and i had heard about this... (now i feel guilty for saying 'ripped off' because i liked the movie, the hindi one, except the first one hour)

whatever, watching the hindi...um...'similar concept movie' ruined my experience of watching the original....kinda...i liked it, but could have liked it better if i hadn't come across the concept before...and as most hindi movies somehow manage (fake bastards) they made the ending a bit happier :-P

so...as a result...i came out after watching the hindi movie with a 'warm fuzzy feeling', that feeling, maybe, could have belonged to 'the notebook' had i seen it before!! but would the hindi one still succeed in the same?? ARRGHHH!! im just pissed...but 'the notebook' wasn't bad...not bad at all...and im being generous here...im happy i got this bit of curiosity off my chest...

2008-05-13T02:28:00.000-07:00

african american mickey mouse

or maybe he's just really dirty...

2008-05-12T12:07:00.000-07:00

Heeheeheeheeheeheeheeheehee

:-P

fictional characters?

2008-04-28T04:36:00.000-07:00

my favourite fictional characters:-

seth cohen (the o.c)
veronica mars
horton (horton hears a who)
juno
whatsherface (teen girl squad)
Dr. Gregory House

it's pretty sad that the weird female characters i like don't exist...the 'weird' is so attractive!! and because they're actors...they're hot!! in real life, most hot people aren't weird like we'd like them to be!! damn!! but some are :-P but they're like..ugh...unnattainable...kinda...most of the time...it's just fucked up...

grrr....

why facebook is depressing....

2008-04-25T14:31:00.000-07:00

this is from some weird application...

Note:- a few days ago the count for people who said 'yes' was 0, the '1' kinda kills the humor now...bleh...and the effect...agh!!

2008-04-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

ah...im back...and with ubuntu..er...

ok...

2008-04-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

box car racer (cat like thief):-
Cat like thief she stole air from my lungs
Leave me standing on this lonely grave
I dug it out in case she turns away

angels and airwaves (the adventure):-
Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If you`re gonna to fall
I'll let you know
That I will pick you up
Like you for I

blink 182 (going away to college):-
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Dont depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But Id go through hell for you and

I havent been this scared in a long time
And Im so unprepared so heres your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This worlds an ugly place
But youre so beautiful to me

plus 44 (little death):-
Please, sleep my darling, sleep
Your car crash in slow motion
Won't upset the pace on distant stars
And one by one the years of our lives
Stumble as the moments pass
So please hold on, so please hold on

So fall asleep with the windows open
Come to me with the worst you've said and done
You'll close your eyes and see me
A little death makes life more meaningful
I stand no chance at all

just excerpts from the various bands formed here and there by mark tom and travis...
i don't know what anyone would make of the last one, 'little death', look at these for an insight and believe what you want:-
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858627535
http://www.songmeanings.net/lyric.php?lid=3530822107858634590

i won't say all of these are my favorite lyrics from all their songs...they're just the ones that struck me in this moment :)

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Now playing: Daniel Bedingfield - Wrap My Words Around You
via FoxyTunes

2008-04-10T08:30:00.000-07:00

How do you feel when there's no sun
And how will you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again
How will you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you
All the things you do

Don't ever feel
That you're alone
I'll never let you down
I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart
Don't let it go
Carry the notion
Carry the notion back to me

2008-04-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

you realize that over simplifying stuff usually just complicates it?

2008-04-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

model colony has to be the best place to just...walk around in, also it has the best benches...

I've been feeling very happy inside lately :) a lot of my notions have been thrown into a churner and mutilated and turned inside out...and i love the new versions!! i enjoy all this new shit, all the strange feelings...all the pathetic paranoia...it's hard to explain and generalize all this...not even guessable by the third person...Wheeeeee!!!

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Now playing: U2 - where the streets have no name
via FoxyTunes

2008-04-07T11:59:00.000-07:00

everybody else seems to have found love....motherfuckers

2008-04-07T11:43:00.000-07:00

i know this person, this girl, the best way to describe her would be a total freakshow with a really attractive exterior...a strange combination...very screwed up combination...

2008-04-06T22:58:00.000-07:00

don't you think restaurant pictures are damn weird? where everyone will be looking at the cameraman at one end of the table...it's strange and creepy, and usually in bad light...it's collective posing!!

2008-04-05T14:48:00.000-07:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

2008-04-03T12:02:00.000-07:00

everyone's a let down it just deepens on how far down they can go...

im essentially a optimist, but it's mr pessimist who actually runs the show, it's like, optimism, are the stress relieving magnets always next to my head, but pessimism is this umbrella always looming overhead...

2008-04-01T15:29:00.000-07:00

as a friend of mine once said:-

there will always be two types of people in everybody's orkut contact list, one person with his name somewhere on the lines of "leaving orkut" and another whose name would be "life rocks!!!"

how true, it's strange that such golden truths are uttered by such choots...hey that rhymes...

2008-04-01T15:21:00.000-07:00

sometimes listening to light music in the gym works too :)

i heartily enjoyed 'ocean city girl' by 'ivy' during cardio today :-P

some people will spend all their lives assuming that they look very cool when they succeed in getting the attention they were 'passively' seeking, hah! watching a movie alone usually gives you a better insight than when sitting with friends, you watch it as a different person...everyone should try it, if you're four people, sit in four different corners of the hall :-P and don't message each other!!

2008-03-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

You using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

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Now playing: The Honorary Title - Stay Away
via FoxyTunes

2008-03-30T06:36:00.000-07:00

horse porn or piss porn?

2008-03-28T14:18:00.000-07:00

I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go
Are you happy where you're standing still?
Do you really want the sugar pill?
I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start
Tonight it feels so hard
As the train approaches Gare Du Nord
As I'm sure your kiss remains employed
Am I only dreaming?

You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me

2008-03-28T14:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes a large number of facebook notifications can be so exciting!! but so shortlived...depressing actually...bleh.

maybe i'm paranoid yeah that's my problem
you almost have to be when you look like me

2008-03-28T13:43:00.000-07:00

Are you so lonely
you don't even know me
but you'd like to stone me

Hey, I'll take this day by day by day.
Under the covers I'm okay, I guess.
Life's too short and I feel small.

if i ever found out some person has a 'crush' on me (the word is thrown around a lot of nowadays, everyone has one, people keep having em on each other, bleh) i'd be like - really? wow..i thought it was something only i had on people, people who sit there, who i can't touch, and talk to, people from whom i wouldn't receive even a distorted, reduced form of what i feel for them...it's always a princess and the pauper situation, it's pretty pathetic actually...laughable.

fuck you all. im gonna think about doing romantic things with my imaginary concoctions and live in hypothesis...bleh.

i think this excuse for a blog will see the word 'bleh' a lot....i mean, a lot!!

2008-03-28T13:40:00.000-07:00

there are some things you can't talk to anyone about, then if person 'x' comes along, and you realize you can talk to this person about anything!! kinda...but what do you do if you want to discuss person 'x'? agh...and you can't talk to anyone about person x but a clone of person x. this does not make any sense, help! or not..

2008-03-28T12:46:00.000-07:00

however much i'd like to deny it, because it sounds so gay, i am a hopeless romantic..bleh.

my stomach hurts.